Quick Defrost is like trying to make friends in new place without a institute that keeps you together (education).

Well weekend here, I wake up about 2ish. Really bored and not knowing what today would have planned for me. I call my friend riyad in London just to chat, he recommends to go to city centre and explore. Through long discussion i guess it is a option, he says it self exploration i think its self destruction. Been in Leeds for 4 months now, but only seen the city centre once with Michael when he showed me when I first got here. I decide to walk as its only 10-15 mins away and also be less hassle without the car. Usually in London would only go westend with friends, or if on my jays would have something to buy. So this idea of exploring town on myself is bit different, but i guess it like when we go on holiday. Eventually i get into town and go to some shops, i end up buying few dvd's, because a massive sale at virgin mega store. Got some films that wanted to see ages ago and Bruce lee documentary. I guess this can be seen a shopping therapy. I play a guy at winning eleven 8 in games store, i draw with him but it was nice to play with someone and converse with a stranger. After walking for a while i get tired so decide to grab a coffee, i've had this all planned and have my book ready for this situation. Actually got 2 books on me. First one call the origin of love from my friend riyad, as he said would help me get over someone. Second book rich dad poor dad recommended by tien to get new idea's. I get a cafe mocha as cafe latte is getting really boring now. So i find a tall seat for 2 and take a sit. The place in filled with Chinese, many girl actually i think its only Chinese girls and the odd foreign person. So i bring out the book and start reading, i decide to read rich dad book as it doesn't look that sad. My brain uses 30% to read this book, but other 70% is feeling arkward as i have this feeling of being alone. Chinese people always talk about face, and being alone is a way of losing face. How many Chinese people do we see in coffee shop alone? Unless we are waiting for someone. I drink up and decide its time to walk home. Seeing people in town, realizing oriental people enjoy coffee shops and English enjoy pubs. Its gonna take longer to make those friends that you can click with, exactly like many things it cannot be rushed. Treasure those friends that you made throughout those years, because trust me they aint easy to replace. Final note for today, it must get better it cant get any worst.

Alloy bai bai

Well i'm having a different day, i'm on the platform from work going home. Its about 7ish and it really dark and really cold. But then i imagine that i'm waiting for that dragon cat to pick me up, you know what i'm mean if you seen the cartoon. Trains are always late so i stand, sit, stand and just wait. But to understand why i'm here we have to rewind 8 hours, when i leave my house in my car. Well start driving round the corner of my house, with 50 cent rapping loud (to wake me up). Then suddenly i realise that my car doesn't seem to drive smoothly, i get out quick and see my front left tyre burst. Shock and bit annoyed i quickly do the block and head for the bus to town. I walk to the bus, only been on it once, its quite different experience. Lucky i planned to leave house early cos i had to visit the bank. I jump on the bus and sit (finding out its only 3 stops so bit of waste, but i dont know where the train station is, so its ok.), on the bus i see 2 chinese chicks, one looks ok, but of course i didn't do anything. Eventually get off bus one stop extra cos i felt it take me closer, but it took me futher. Run towards the so called direction i thought it be in. Get on the train and arrive on time to work. Nice because i really didn't wanna be late anymore. Told most of my work mates about the day. Then got macky to meet me after work to fix my tyre. Now we jump back to the train journey going home. I meet macky at plaza outside train station, i suggest i treat him to wok mania for coming out to fix my car. Macky always calls me kwok mania, i call him mac d's (jen suggested it) i use to call him micky mouse. We walk in and then walk out because suggest eating after be better. Back to my street, take ages fixing the car tyre because it was dark. Borrow torch from my neighbours, well drug up students but really helpful. Eventually my car tyre is replace, only really annoying thing is my alloy wheel are GONE. Car looks odd now, but things happen get over it. Then back to wok mania, buffey meal. Aim for 4 plates, yeah right. Only did 2, greasy and salty food is really not eat able. Cos 23 quid, next time we should go to a proper meal. Eventually wrap the nite with late nite tesco. In away macky (black dude) and myself (chinese boy) make a good rush hour combination. He's from carribeans so yes he even travel further than me, is this a friendship, who knows. hehe

new resolution hehe

Well 2005, weird when I say that. I always picture 2005 as the future when we will be flying in space like star wars. Well this blob might seem like a biggie small rap, where everything just appears with no linkage. Ok work I’ve always had wrong impressions given out, when I was at onetel I was known as a kipper, cos I always slept. In HBOS I’m becoming this person that always late. Not sure why, sometimes its the 5 mins extra that becomes an hour, other times its the traffic cos ppl in Leeds are really slow, once it was Trisha yes that silly show, but it was really interesting that morning with son saying his dad marrying a gold digger who is 60. My work mates always ask me about Trisha, I hardly watch it, just that morning. Well recently I haven't been sleeping well; I just seem to see the clock tick when I’m laying there. Bit like Ed Norton in fight club, not sure why I can't sleep. I tend to fall asleep in the last 10 minutes before I wake up, that’s why I’m late. Mackey (dude at work) suggested hollicks; I got some hot chocolate malteseza type. When I'm trying to sleep I've been watching NBA on channel 5, I watch this cool documentary on Shaq and Kobi from la Laker. Always been interested in really good friends becoming good enemies. Like tupac and biggie. Well this morning I rush into work like usual, 15 mins late, I speak to my team leader who eventually comes back to me and says we need to talk. We go to cyber cafe and start speaking bout lateness; I’ve been late 11 days in the past 22. So that likes 50%. He comments I work well but punctuality is crap. We pay charity every Friday for dress down day, I once told my team I would pay a pound every day I’m late. My team leader said have you phoned your bank. Well guess you know what my resolution is now, yes its to be on time. My shift alters, from 8-4 to latest 11-7. Thinking when 8-4 shift comes, I'll wake up at 6, so meaning I’ll go bed bout 10. Quite strange because being Chinese I don’t really sleep early, but will have to changes as well. I Remember Mohammed Ali, saying that whatever you do, be the best, even if it’s a dustbin man. Gonna make a change and be on time. I'm here to gain experience and not to get sacked (be there). Got another resolution, something I’ve always wanted to do. But just never actually gone through with it. Some of you may know what it is, if it happens you will know. Hope you all have a happy new year and may all keep whatever resolution you have.