curse of that hill

Thank you for holding and will answer as soon as possible. This is more of a live blog, i'm speaking to elephant.co.uk. Its wednesday today, I thought it was bad when aresenal lost 3-1 last night to bayern munich. Well off to work 40 mins ago, i called david the guy i pick up on the way as usual. Then clean off the snow of the car, well freesing. Then i start my drive, i spoke to my mum last night who said to me, dont drive if the conditions are too bad. How can you tell it aint really bad condition, until accident happens. Well in the car i'm listening to get hi get low by jin (not sure on track name), Why don't i see the sign coming. Well i go round the corner from house, where there's a park near a slope. This is slope i realise my tyre had burst, you know i aint liking this hill. I going down this hill, yes i know whats going to happen is obvious to you and me. It so damn slippery and i cant break, i'm heading for 2 short stump (stone ones). Could be worst, it could a lady with kid, old granny, another car. I eventually break and watch my car go straight between these 2 shitty stumps. After the vendetta ( i dont think this word is the right one here), well after the accident, i pause in the car looking out of the car and screaming in my head fuck........................ !!!!! Then i get out, 30 year old man and a kid on bike come to me to check if i'm ok. Well the man had just survive he said he had pull off the road on the right so he made it. Kid was telling or pointing out all the damages as you do, i swear i should of broke his bike and then he'd feel how i felt. He just kept on saying look at that, i was in my head saying piss off. Then i move the car, as i knew if i didn't another car would go straight into mine. Life a bitch sometime, and shit happens. All i can say if you can let go of that crap moment you will be alot stronger. At moment i'm waiting for garage people to come to me. I call work and its taken as holiday for me today. Some kind of holiday. Out

My return part 1

Chinese new year, first i want to say Happy new year to everyone. For new year i came back to London which was pretty cool, had many things to do, so made feel quite important. After coming back got my lycee (chinese money bags) from mum and aunt. Dont get that much in Uk as most of family is in Hong kong! But really nice to wish them gung hay fat choi and pocket some cash.
Thursday, was orginally having a interview for a role to get me back, but it got cancel. So i met sarah, a college friend. Didn't really speak alot in college, but that was then. We decided to catch ocean 12, thought it would be good but i wanted to watch million dollar baby from review. Film was cool, but not that good. Speaking to sarah found out i knew many people she knew, but i guess that be the case with bbc. Seem like such a small world being a bbc. Someone always knows the next dude. After the film we had a rush dinner, which i apoligise if sarah reading. As i had to go and play poker and mates house.
Poker session, involved the original 4 qmw kings, well it was tien, phil, aaron and myself. 2 type of game, limit poker and no limit poker. For the limit poker i lost the most £40. But on the other one no limit, i was only winner to pocket £30, so end of night loss £10. But was ok as feeling bad from losing £40 at beginning. Really nice game with some mates, also felt good as haven't done a activity with some friends for ages. Missing London, but i know i'll be back soon..

You looking at me

It's been a while since i've updated the blog, i wrote something last time but it didn't seem apropriate so i took it off. Life i'm still trying to get along in this city. I spent last saturday going groccery shopping with my flatmate, which was nice. We bought tong yue, those round white balls. We had it twice so far, its really nice got some peanut taste in the middle. That evening amanda was invited to her friends bday down the road, she ask me to go. I was going to go with her, but afterwards that feeling of not knowing someone crept in, so i decided to give it a miss. I came home and ask my other flatmate to go clubbing. We decided to go a club that i went previously with mackie called fruit cupboard. We needed to get cash before, so we went to the light, which is like central leeds where most ppl hang out. At cash machine i was queuing and some English 30 year old started doing those ching chong remarks. I really wanted to beat him up, but he was in a group of 6 and i was just with my flatmate. So I stared directly to him, giving the most evil bruce lee look ever done by mankind. He look back, but didn't do nothing to me. I just wanted him to know, he offended my race. When i think of the bruce lee look, it has to go to tien he gives the look that you know he's serious. I think it keeps him out of fights cos of that look. At the club, we meet one of michael ex carer who gets us in for free. The club is really black oriented, Rnb night. Many of those act like gangster, but that just normal coming up from bbc lifestyle where many think there are the gangster. I eventually see 3 chinese ppl, which is cool. One guy sparky hair, with 2 chinese girls. The guy reminded me of aaron, because he dance well and was loving the attention. I wish they could meet and battle. After a while michael said lets try another club, we left there but couldn't get back into another club because of the length of queue. I heard someone say that if you dont look for it, it will come to you. I like what that person said. I sometime thing about how it would be when i come back, will i fit in and what view would people have of me. But then i realise that people accept you for who you are and if they are true friends they will be there.